Prescription: Read When You are about to Lose Hope

With all your smiles, your light, your good little heart, how can you do wrong? How can anything go wrong? How can you end up in a bad place? That's not what you create. With the words and colors of your mind, your sheer imagination, and your eye to see the most curious and, therefore, beautiful things in seemingly unimaginable spaces, how can it go wrong?

This hope you have is not for nothing. You just can't see it right now in this mist, under this storm cloud that's covering the whole of you. Losing hope is the easy thing to do. Holding on to it is the true test. 

You are a dreamer. So, fuck it, fine. Dream. If that's what you can do best now, then do it to your best. Give it all you got and Dream. Feel that dream because Dreams are possibilities.

Nothing stops here. Time and tide, they keep moving on and on and on. You can't stop walking this journey you've started, not right now, not when you know there are many cabinets of curiosities waiting just for you around the corner. Even in your sleep, you take the steps forward. Maybe they are clearer and more guided than your waking steps. 

It's Krashen's Input Hypothesis, my darling. This is your I+1: Dreams + Experience. 

Dreams take you where your heart truly wants, and knowing your heart, it can't be a bad place.


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